hallo...i'm susan.
Today…was a pretty unmotivated day - a lazy day I can say.
- woke up
- had some lor mi ji while watching drama (highlight of my morning)
- then because of traffic…why do people drive under the speed limit in Tucson!!!…I was kinda late for an event that I was suppose to take pictures for
- then went to school, took pictures of Scott Cohen - it was a pretty tiring 5 hour workshop (btw Scott Cohen is amazing, can’t wait to see his movie, “The Other Woman”)
- Then drove back to Phoenix. On my way back to Phoenix, I spent two hours reflecting on what Scott Cohen said….”You guys are one of a few people out there that are doing what you are doing because you know that you want to do it. But…knock on wood…hopefully you’ll make money from it.”
(Yep…I should have changed to a science major.)
The big question is HOW AM I GOING TO GET STARTED? I mean, I can’t just move to LA…not right at this moment. But, if I don’t move to LA, then how am I going to meet people? If I don’t network, how am I going to succeed….
So, I’m pretty much screwed. I should just go to grad school for the next two years or so, and then afterwards find a normal and practical job. Then, live an easy life.
I was pretty emotionally defeated on my drive back to Phoenix. I mean, it feels like I been spending four years in college for the purpose of pursuing a “dead end” pretty much…
Then, as if God appeared out of thin air…well not literally.
He brought me this passage from “My Utmost for His Highest.”
We all have many dreams and aspirations when we are young, but sooner or later we realize we have no power to accomplish them. We cannot do the things we long to do, so our tendency is to think of our dreams and aspirations as dead. But God comes and says to us, “Arise from the dead … .” When God sends His inspiration, it comes to us with such miraculous power that we are able to “arise from the dead” and do the impossible.
http://utmost.org/the-inspiration-of-spiritual-initiative/
Reading this passage made me feel a sense of relief - like a giant boulder is removed off my chest. I know that God is putting me through film school for a reason, and I know for sure that reason is not to throw my talents away after fours years of education. I know he wants me to do something with it, and He’s telling me not to give up - for he has plans, and his plans will come at the perfect timing.
