hallo...i'm susan.
I really have the urge to write something now…soo..not gonna care about punctuation, grammar, or spelling…cuz i really simply do not care any more…
sometimes i feel like i have the most surface level conversations with people…
Hey how are you?
oh, i’m good, you?
i’m good too!
no i’m not good…if u really want to know how i really am or really feel, maybe we should sit down and have an actual conversation.
however, after saying this, i also ask people this rhetorical question too. but do i really really want 2 know if u are feeling good? or is it simply just a greeting…
most of the time, it’s just a greeting, a cultural deficiency i guess i can say, our society programs us to do so…or does it?
i dunno, i’m talking to u for the sake of talking to u…i want to talk to u, i don’t care what u say, i just want to talk, you know, have someone kindly acknowledge my presence…no?
this film program is driving me nuts…it makes me think the way i don’t want to think, it makes me see the world how i don’t want to see it. no i’m not being pessimistic here…or am i?
it also made me realize that life is just like a movie, but just not really constructed in 3 acts, with cuts, or with angles.
sometimes it is hard to express how i feel, because i don’t even know how i myself feel half of the time…talking to people now is like delivering a dialog from a screenplay…am i talking for the sake of talking or do i really want to talk to u but if i really want to talk to u how do i know i want to talk to u and now talk for the sake of talking…how do i know i’m not delivering my lines from a script?
ok…enough of rambling..cuz i don’t even have a clue what i said from the above…
