hallo...i'm susan.
I personally don’t think I’m a good writer, nor am I someone who can easily express myself vocally or with words. However, I just really feel like writing.
Lately for the past few months or so, I feel really isolated from the world. It feels as if no one knows that I exist - I’m sure people do - but I just feel so like in my own world. So insecure. So invisible. Maybe it’s because of my mom - I have to drive back to Phoenix every weekend. It’s actually really tiring. Since it’s my senior year, I feel that I should make it the best year EVER! - but there are so many obstacles and challenges I face now - they are pressing down really hard.
I feel like I’m missing out a lot, but every single time I go back to see her I know it’s worth it. Thinking it this way makes me feel a little better, makes me feel that I’m going through this for a reason - a really good reason.
I have been reading through Matthews this past month. Jesus’s greatest challenge was probably His death. He knew he had to do it. He knew his outcome and consequences. He knew what people will think of him after. He knew people will still hate him. But, he still did it. After predicting this death for the 3rd time in chapter 20, the next few chapters basically are all his words. Especially 23 - 25, it’s all him talking.
He knows he doesn’t have much time left, and he has a bunch of things to say while he’s still in this world. He preaches a fair amount on the 2nd coming.
I’m not sure how these few chapters in Matthews really relate to how I feel now, but it’s really encouraging to see God’s passion for people - that we aren’t alone and isolated - that he’s going to come back for us - that no matter what He’s here.
Again, I’m not good with words, but God’s passion for people is truly inspiring and real.
