A Self Portrait.: Archive

Funny thing how I still feel a little lost about what to do with my life…then I read my last post, and it makes me feel better. So, graduation kind of sucks….it’s only been three weeks since I graduated and I am already missing college and highland breakfast burritos… : ( Since, I am semi-unemployment. I have a lot of time sitting at home and indulging myself in...

Jun 7th

Today…was a pretty unmotivated day - a lazy day I can say. - woke up - had some lor mi ji while watching drama (highlight of my morning) - then because of traffic…why do people drive under the speed limit in Tucson!!!…I was kinda late for an event that I was suppose to take pictures for - then went to school, took pictures of Scott Cohen - it was a pretty tiring 5 hour...

Feb 26th

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God, sometimes I just need a big hug from you.

Nov 3rd

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I personally don’t think I’m a good writer, nor am I someone who can easily express myself vocally or with words. However, I just really feel like writing. Lately for the past few months or so, I feel really isolated from the world. It feels as if no one knows that I exist - I’m sure people do - but I just feel so like in my own world. So insecure. So invisible. Maybe...

Nov 3rd

Sometimes I am so taken away by “life,” that I tend to forget to sit down, relax, and breathe. I also tend to forget the one initial purpose I’m living for… God.

Aug 31st

God, This is the biggest challenge you have ever given me. Please let me bear through the emotional pain. God, I don’t want to wake up every morning in fright. I don’t want to sleep with nightmares. I don’t want to sleep under my pillows anymore. Please let my prayers keep my sanity. Please let my prayers give me peace. Please have mercy…

Aug 27th

So lately I have been struggling with an personal issue. Since the start of this issue, I felt that God kept telling me to be patient with this person. I didn’t really know if I was hallucinating, or I am just trying to comfort myself by being “patient;” however, at about 2 in the morning I came across Jacob and Rachel’s story in Genesis. Jacob fell in love with Rachel,...

Jun 22nd

I dunno what’s going on with me, but recently I just don’t want to see people or even be around them. If I can, I just wanna go somewhere foreign, where no one knows me, and do something for God. Just like go on a trip with God. Alone. Just Us.

Jun 6th

It’s always nice to get recommended by someone to fill in a certain position on film sets. I just got asked last weekend to sound mix for a film next weekend. I was excited, and was ready to help out. However, I got the script today, and it was a very artsy independent film. There was gang bang scene in there, and a lot of similar scenes. I made a promise to the production coordinator;...

Jun 1st

OMGOSH! This is soooooooooooooo true. “A woman doesn’t want to be related to with formulas, and she certainly doesn’t want to be treated like a project that has answers to it. She doesn’t want to be solved, she wants to be known.” - John Eldredge , Wild at Heart

May 17th

Why education? Why degrees? Why job? Why work? Why profits? Why money? Why pain? Why suffering? Why trust? Why fact? Why fiction? Why documentary? Why compete? Why win? Why friends? Why family? Why feelings? Why consciousness? Why life…

Mar 3rd

God, please give me the strength and motivation to finish off this semester.

Mar 3rd

Film…I will not let you take away my sanity.

Feb 17th

Bible Read - Day 3 Genesis 9-13 God, I was always think of you when I see a rainbow. ;)

Dec 26th

Bible Read - Day 2 Genesis 4 - 8 - Cain and Abel - Noah’s Ark I guess was I was reading this; I wasn’t really sure how to interpret these chapters - Adam being over 900? <—-really? For me, is it really hard to imagine. Noah and his family and the animals being able to survive in the boat for over a year? <—-really??? Like it is really hard for me to imagine,...

Dec 25th

So I’m going to try something…read the Bible from the beginning till the end…and try to post something everyday…again, I’ll try really hard to. I feel that God is calling me to do this for some reason. =-) Bible Read - Day 1 Genesis 1 - 4 So, God, how did it feel already knowing that Eve was going to be lured?

Dec 24th

U know God, sometimes it’s hard to lead a patient life…please show me how.

Dec 21st

I really have the urge to write something now…soo..not gonna care about punctuation, grammar, or spelling…cuz i really simply do not care any more… sometimes i feel like i have the most surface level conversations with people… Hey how are you? oh, i’m good, you? i’m good too! no i’m not good…if u really want to know how i really am or really...

Nov 19th

Nov 6th

Times

Tenth Avenue North - I know I need You I need to love You I love to see You, but it’s been so long I long to feel You I feel this need for You And I need to hear You, is that so wrong? Oh, oh. Oh, oh. Oh, oh. Oh, oh. Oh, oh. Oh, oh. Now You pull me near You When we’re close, I fear You Still I’m afraid to tell You, all that I’ve done Are You done forgiving? Oh...

Sep 21st

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Sep 1st

Compassion?

I was trying to concentrate reading my history of documentary book…I finished reading the chapter (I really had no clue what I read); the whole entire time I was thinking about God’s grace, compassion, his amazing, unconditional, and merciful love. Yet…for the past several months I’ve been to church…I haven’t really been exposed (maybe I got the message wrong?)...

Aug 30th

“We do not always get what we want, but that doesn’t mean that we no longer...”

– “Captivating”

Aug 22nd

Aug 17th

“and the Holy Spirit descended on him in bodily form like a dove. And a voice came from heaven: ‘You are my Son, whom I love; with you I am well pleased.’ “ - Luke 3:22

Aug 15th

Going Back

As I am packing miserably for my trip back to Tucson, somehow, I stumble upon our family photo albums. Don’t you ever wish that you can go back to the time when Daddy was still able to hold you in his arms. Mommy would still be hold your hand when you cross the street. As I look at the pictures, The little “me” in the pictures seems more happy back then, more energetic,...

Aug 11th

MUSIC DEFINES MY SOUL!

Aug 10th

…so an interesting conversation just now I always wonder what culture I’m part of, specifically choosing American and or Chinese. I guess I use to think sometimes that I was more American and sometimes more Chinese. Until I realize that I’m not not fully American nor fully Chinese…culture wise. I have decided that I’m “the-new-Chinese-in-America…” ...

Aug 8th

IMBD

Haha…I’m listed on Imbd… not as a director…or editor…or script…or even grip… but as an actress…which i am feeling indifferent towards.. but i think it’s kinda funny seeing myself on a movie site… feels like i’m really setting foot into this field…which i did expect…yet it’s a different feeling when it is...

Aug 5th

Aug 4th

So like have you ever sang praises to God, and suddenly your heart starts beating really fast you have to palm over it to physically stop it from falling out…? It happened again today. I think I’m falling madly in love with you.

Aug 3rd

Yay!!

I got tumblr…=-)

Aug 3rd